He doesnt love me

I have a medical condition. I can't have sex with him all the time because I'm in pain a lot. I think he likes me and feels sorry for me, but I don't think he loves me anymore. I feel like he only went through with marrying me because he knew that he'd feel like the world's biggest jerk if he left because he can't handle it. He gets on the computer every night after work to talk to girls that are "friends", but I'm right here, and he never wants to talk to me. He's always mad at me, and seems to enjoy making me feel stupid. I don't think I'm strong enough to leave, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to stay either... The worst part is, I don't think I blame him, and I'm beginning to not love myself as much. When did I become so dependant on his affection?

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