I only love him as a friend

I had a one night stand with a longtime friend, found out I was pregnant at 20yrs old and he didn't want the baby. I kept the baby and ended up marrying a man I only knew for a year someone I normally wouldn't have gone for because I was scared to raise a child on my own I married him. I know deep down that I have never loved him in that way a wife should and I am always thinking about the man I really loved. I refuse to put him through a divorce it would kill him and I have already been so unfair to him. I'm so sorry.

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