Unacceptabe Love

My secret...I'm in love with my best friend. I'm a straight, engaged, regular girl next door, but I'm madly in love with my best friend. I think about her all the time and wish that some way some how I could have her. Our connection is so deep and so true, but I'm not satisfied with just a friendship. I want her sexually, emotionally, and in every way what I should want my fiance. Alas, she's a straight, boy crazy girl. She knows I like her and she has teased me with kisses and flirts, but I don't think that she wants me the same way I want her. I'm so confused. Should I marry the man I've been with for 8 years and push my longing for her aside? Or should I reveal all my deep secrets to her and risk loosing her friendship. I honestly don't think I could live without her.
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