abortion and guilt

my freshman year of college i had an abortion. i tried to hide it from my parents but on valentine's day i had to go to the Dr. to make sure everything had gone fine. when i came home, my mom was mad that i had just been coming home from college every weekend to eat and have my laundry done but wasn't spending any time with her. i felt so guilty that i broke down and told her about the abortion. she told me that this was a secret she was going to have to keep from the family for the rest of her life and that it would crush my father to know what happened. she said she thought i took the easy road, but she has no idea what i went through. i think about it every day, and have for the last 4 years.

i cant believe my mom thinks that this is a burden on HER and i resent her everytime i think about the whole situation. now, whenever i am dating someone, i think she is secretly calling me a whore in her head
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advice from Guest2431865 | 02-22-2008 22:11 | E : 3 | S : 1
I know how you feel on some level, when I went home a year ago, I told my mother I had been raped about four years ago. She had very much the same reaction. She said that I probably brought it on myself and that she now had to have the hard time of keeping it from my father cause it would crush him. Like I give a shit about how he feels he beat me so bad my brain has scar tissue, and now I'm the messed up person? My healing began the day I cut them off, they never really were cut out for the whole parent thing anyways
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