alcoholism?

I know I have a drinking problem. Everyone thinks I do it to have fun, but in reality I do it so they will think I'm fun. Im also convinced I have social/generalized anxiety disorder. I secretly made an appointment to be evaluated and she told me I was an alcholic. The only treatment I can find is group. I would have to be drunk for that. I've been denying it to my family for so long that I feel if I admitted it now they would think me a liar. I started drinking when i was 14 and it has gotten worse every year since. I'm now 21 and drink 2 pints of whiskey every night. I feel worthless.
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