Don't you remember

I remember anything and everything that somebody has told me that has mattered to them, because I feel like it should matter to me too, which it does. I remember everything I've ever care about.
I remember wanting so badly to run away because I was so tired of listening to fights. I remember wishing that somebody would just come up to me with a gun and shoot me so I wouldn't have to live until tomorrow. I remember using a razor blade to shave skin of my arms in order to feel something. I remember sleeping most of the time because I wanted to dream away reality. I remember telling myself that I would never tell anyone my secrets, because I would never want anyone to expierence them. I remember telling myself I would never fall in love because heart break is a murder in its own. I remember praying to God for forgivness because I have constantly sinned.

It's not just a memory.
Category General Confession