emotionally jammed up

I had a mistress at work for five years, horrible as that is, she left me and went back to her husband. 18 months later she started an affair secretly seeing my married nephew...I hate them both now, and I cant tell my nephew why I dont want him in my life anymore and she should have known better.. but inside I want her back so bad..I cant stop thinking of her..literally every 10-15 minutes..she doesnt deserve me or my nephew, How can I love her so much.
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