Fear

I'm afraid to admit that I love my father even though he'd put me through hell all my life and left me, my mother, and at the time 8 year old brother four years ago after a divorce and i havent seen him since.
When I was a child he'd locked me in a bed room for an entire 8 hours while he left the house to go do drugs and my mother was out at work. He'd beat me with a belt buckel when he was home just for good measure, and frequently told me that I was a worthless child.
I hear that he's got a new family. New wife with kids and he's dieing of Prostate cancer. I dont feel bad for him, but I'm afraid to let myself admit that I still love him.

After all of that why do I still love him?
Category Didn't Want To Know - But I Do

advice from Guest2805745 | 04-16-2008 14:30 | E : 2 | S : 0
because he'll always be your father no matter what
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advice from Guest2981200 | 04-16-2008 14:55 | E : 1 | S : 1
well if i were you, i would go to him and tell him how i feel. just let him know that he treated you like dirt and that you don't know why he treated you the way he treated you.even though he is dyeing, i would tell him that he deserves everything he is going.
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