Friend Love

I've been madly in love with my friend for the past 5 years. Even when he was being a jerk, I'd give him months of space, and we'd be back to normal, and when I was a jerk, he'd give me months of space, and we'd be fine. For the past year or so we've grown to be really close, even though he's been living in another state for 2 years. He came back home for good today and it turns out that we're transferring to the same college.

The problem is that when I went to visit him and his roommate (another friend of mine) I had no idea that my friend finally liked me back, and I slept with his roommate. I still love him so much and that has never changed, no matter who I slept with to try to make it hurt less.

Now I've seen him paying special attention to this girl who's about a million times prettier than I am, and I really have absolutely no business to even try and compete with.

I lost the only man I've ever wanted. I try and try to find someone like that that I have that connection with, and he doesn't exist.

As dumb as it sounds, I really feel like I have nothing more to live for. I've been looking for 5 years now to find someone as good as him, and the fact is I'm not that easy to live with, and without him, I can't even live with me.

I see him for the first time since April tomorrow and I feel like a corpse that hasn't even had the dignity to lay down yet.
Category Romance