I become obsessive

When I like a girl a lot I start to become really obsessive a lot becaus eI have low self esteem and don't feel good about myself and think I will never be with anyone and will die alone. I try not to and to let the comments from people that call me names just roll off and not affect me...but after a while it really starts to hurt. MY heart hurts so much sometimes I just want to die to end it all...I could cry myself to sleep everynight...Why can't I just find someone and feel better about myself?

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