i blame myself for everything

everything i do i punish and blame myself for. i used to be a cutter and am about to get back into it, its the only thing that i find punishes mywelf enough. i punish myself for everything for eating, for flirting, for making any kind of mistakes. i also wish that i did not eat what i do .... i have started throwing up my food again... this has been the worst coupl of months ever...
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advice from Guest2725431 | 04-01-2007 01:46 | E : 1 | S : 0
I know how you feel and I do the same thing myself. You really need to see a professional about this before it gets out of control. And it sounds like it already is out of control. If you can't get help for yourself then think of the people that care about you and what it would do to them if they ever found out what you do. There are people who can help you.
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advice from Guest2613994 | 04-09-2007 23:16 | E : 1 | S : 1
Hey! You won't believe it, but im exactly the same. I really know what it feels like to just long to 'get it out'. I really understand what you're going through. Try talking to someone who you can trust, it helps. Good luck.
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advice from Guest2973592 | 04-24-2007 01:44 | E : 0 | S : 0
hi i dont do exactly the same thing .. i use to cut , and now i just find myself putting myself down everytime i do almost anything.. things run through my head like "ur so stupid..".. "i wish i was somone else" and "wuld if i was never born?" sometime i want to blame god for m pain but then the finger always comes bak to myself. I dont know what u went through , but since your feeling so down i strongly suggest you talk to somone ANYONE. I use to be 2 emberessesd to do so , until it got so bad that i actually attempted suicide several time (ending up in the hospital twice for pill over dose ) trust me its nothing relieving about it./ I wish thatsomone would have given me this information, bak then. Call those hotlines, tellyur mom /dfad/bro. sis./any one that you need help. only you kno when somethings wrong, im on a journey back to normalcy... elieve me i never thought id be wherer i am now . before you have to endure any more pain please give yourself a chance and reach out. it sounds super corny ,, but it most likely will nly get worse. theres a beautiful worl d that waiting for u .. give that a chance

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advice from Guest3144649 | 05-19-2007 23:00 | E : 0 | S : 0
Mistakes are normal and are a part of life, you will make many in your lifetime. You don't need to punish yourself for ones that are no big deal. Just tell yourself, "It's okay to make mistakes, it's how you learn."
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advice from Guest3157259 | 05-23-2007 06:45 | E : 0 | S : 0
You shouldn't be so hard on yourself mistakes happen and no ones to blame. The things you are doing are very unhealthy and it actually hurts the ones that loves you the most. My girlfriend used to be in your position and I used to cut myself also. You really need to confide in a close friend and let them help you because if your not going to quite for yourself then do it for the ones you love.
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advice from Guest779252 | 08-24-2007 12:50 | E : 0 | S : 0
Everybody makes mistakes, its completely natural, its how you learn.
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