I Cant even Tell this to my best friends

I kicked her out. We had crazy pissed off sex several times afterwards. She later claimed to have aborted my child after the breakup. Now she is about to give birth to another man's child. I felt like I still loved her, no matter how much I claimed to be happier without her. I only broke up with her because I knew she could never be happy as a military wife. I tell myself that she just wanted to be married and have a kid and it didn't matter who... but I wanted her to be my wife, and now that I had to push her away "for her happiness" I will always wonder what could have been. I'm with someone new that I love, but I still feel like I can't be happy. If she really did abort our child I would have had a 6 month old right now.

Category Romance