i cant feel

i love him, maybe not like i should, but I love him all the same. when it began it was fairy tale. it was deep, it was passion, it was honest--but now he's here because its habit. I want to be married to him, I want to have his children and he doesn't know what he wants. When i don't think about it everything its smooth sailing, but when i let the thoughts control my mind--i fear he'll never know. how long do i spend giving him time? how long do i wait before i realize it isn't me and it never will be? how long before i break my own heart before he has the chance to?
Category Romance