i dont want the world to see me

the first boy i fell in love with hurt me so much since then ive let fourteen other guys finger me. im eighteen and a virgin last night i went down on the second guy ive ever felt this way about and he is dissapointed in me that makes me so ashamed i shouldnt have told him about the other guys. hes older than me by twenty years but wouldnt hurt me for all the world and today he crushed me. i want to be a better person when i'm with him.id give up forever to touch him cause i know that he feels me somehow i dont want the world to see me cause i dont think that they'd understand when everythings made to be broken i just want him to know who i am and i cant fight the tears that aint coming or the moment of truth in my lies it hurts so much to let down one of the only people i respect enough to take advice from. altered goo goo dolls lyrics were used.
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