i had sex with my

im in foster care and i just got put into a great place and the people i live with are the omly ones i will ever call my parents... but the dad started flirting...
im 17 and iv always been a pretty sexual girl ( due in part to tons of sexual abuse in the family from as far back as i can remember to the age 13, when i entered foster care) so this mom and dad, i knew the mom for quite a while and she decided to save me and take me in... but me and her 36year old husband had sex.... i hate it and i cant stand the thought but i kind felt like i owed him something....
i broke down and told my boyfriend who i love very much(and was dating at the time) and he hates him. i refuse to let it get out cuz i dont want to ruin these peoples lives and i am so much at fault for what happened......

i told my boyfriend it was over and he can relax....things are ok...

i still live with this man.....

and the sad part is

it still happens.....

i want to die......
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