I hate myself

I havent been myself since i felt your cold fist against my face. Since you pushed me down and told me i was worthless. those harsh words i still can hear then being whispered in my ear. i can still feel the hard blows on my stomache. i can still feel the bruises on my arm. what did i do to get you so mad? i dont feel anything becouse of you i let you controlled my life. i even let you get away with cheating and then u just left me! I cant feel anymore. The onlything i feel his the cold razor blade agaisnt my skin. I have to fake a smile to convince evryone im happy. the truth is im dead inside! i will never let you come back in my life! i will never let a guy do that to me! and hopefully i will start to feel again. And no one will ever know my story except for me and you. ive allways wanted to ask you how you sleep at night. But im afriad to even talk to you.
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