i love the guy who hated me

a boy nearly ruined my life. but everytime i talk to him, i wish he was the one that would come over randomly to see me. he taught me i was worthless 5 years ago, everytime i hear about him, i wish he was the one that would hold me. he made me hate myself, and all i want is for him to love me.

because of him, i nearly killed myself through anorexia. but sometimes i wonder if i fell in love with him.
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advice from Guest2626906 | 08-09-2007 13:21 | E : 0 | S : 0
You may have fallen for him, but you might only be longing for him because then it will erase the fact that he thought of you as worthless. If someone treats you like that then they probly have acceptance issues. They make people feel like that because they feel that way. He isn't worth it and truthfully if you had died he probly wouldn't even know it was because of him. If I were you I'd tell him off. maybe thats all you really need to do, unltimatly nobody is going to make you worth something if you feel worthless then only you can change your mind about it. The truth is you aren't worthless, nobody in the world is worthless because soemwhere at some point in your like you changed some1's like either for the better or for the worse. And once you have done that then you can never be seen as worthless. You probly did the second you were born for your parents, so hate to break it to this random guy he can't and no1 else has the capability to decide what your worth is. Once you have changed one this for one single other person your worth something to them. When he made you feel like you were worthless he was worth something to you but that isn't a positive type of worth unless you prove him wrong.
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advice from Guest3561811 | 08-09-2007 15:39 | E : 0 | S : 0
i know its hard =( the guy i fell so completely head over heels for made me feel so worthless for the longest time. i honestly believed that i was never good enough ( and i wasnt even with this guy, i just liked him so much, and i revered him in every way, that i kept wishing he'd acknowledge my worth for once) but you know what, i'm NOT worthless. and neither are you =)
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