i wish i loved him....

He was my first, and he was my last, but i cannot stay with him. The grass is always greener. He loves me dearly, 4 years dearly. He is muslim, i am not. I am lying to him, i have done it again. He is in pain because I say I need to think, I'm just buying time for the other. He gave me herpes, i don't think i forgave him, another greener pasture left me for that.

But I stay..
I stay because he needs me, i stay because he says I am his world, i stay because i will never find another who loves me as he does, who accepts me for who I am, and what he made me...
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