Its just me

I wish my mom would accept me, for who I am. I came out to her and my dad a little over a month now, and she just can't get past the fact that I'm gay. She finds it disgusting and repulsive.

Everytime we talk on the phone our conversations follow the same pattern, and I feel like she's starting to care less and less about me. I don't think realizes that it's not only hard on her, but me as well.

She has also told me that there are some days that she wishes she wasn't alive so that she wouldn't have to deal with it all. I don't know what else to tell her, but that I love her and hope she makes it through the week.

My dad on the other hand just doesn't seem to want to talk about it, but my mom will even if it isn't something positive. She just keeps putting these guilt trips on me. Every time we talk, I can feel her caring less and less and being less proud of me.

Part of me just wants to move away and never look back...
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