Looking for Scapegoats

My father moved away after his sister died. My brother and I only got to hear from him once a week. Always on Wednesdays. When he was away, he at least was making so I let it slide. Soon though he stopped calling, and I spiraled downward. I wanted to die so badly, and almost went to a mental hospital but my mother wouldn't let me because my brother had already been in one. So I tried to fix myself. It didn't work because I made myself worse. So, yeah. I blame my father, and all the people around me for it. I feel like I'm just looking for scapegoats.

Category Disappointed