mentally ill

i suffer from depression and anxiety. i have no faith in humanity i am an utter misanthrope. i trust no one, i stay in all the time as i dont like the people i know anymore. i contemplate suicide every day. i sit and wonder what it would be like if i didnt exist, if i killed myself, if i was gone. the only reason i dont kill myself is because im so young and have my life ahead of me. but i cant stand the pain anymore, taking penecillin and calms every day dosent help me. i cant take pills to control myself because im only 15. im a tad schitzo and it can be disturbing. im not right.

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