My aunt lay dying and i did nothing

A few years back when I still lived with my parents, my aunt lived in the same street. She was having treatment for cancer and was waiting with another relative to be collected and taken to the hospital. I was still in bed and heard my other relative screaming with panic. She was screaming for me, even running down to my house banging on the door. I knew something was wrong but I just lay there and did nothing. I looked out of the window and saw my aunt slumped over in her wheelchair. She had died. I am so ashamed of myself. I feel sickened to this day and carry the guilt inside. I was only a kid but still think I could have done something instead of hiding in my room. I only hope that she has forgiven me. I have never told anyone about this. My family think I was in the shower when my relative was screaming for me. I just couldn't find the courage to act or admit the truth.

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advice from Guest2991877 | 04-25-2007 20:36 | E : 1 | S : 0
of course your aunt forgives you. and god will forgive you if you ask him to. you were only a kid, you shouldn't beat yourself up about this. let it go and forgive YOURSELF.
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advice from Guest3106916 | 05-10-2007 08:24 | E : 1 | S : 0
If she had cancer, she was going to die anyway. You were a kid, and probably scared to death. One time my house caught on fire and I laid in bed until my stepfather came to get me because I was a scared little kid. Let this go.

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advice from Guest2187482 | 01-27-2008 13:33 | E : 1 | S : 0
Its not your fault and theres nothing you could have done. You have been forgiven, you must learn to forgive yourself.
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