My best friend wants nothing to do with me

I can't find anyone to relate to and my "best friend" is too obsessed with herself to deal with me. Everytime I call her, she has something else she'd rather be doing. I hate it. I can't find anyone else who wants to spend more than a busride talking to me either. My boyfriend's great but he has a life too and I understand that, I don't want to dump my whole life on him and he already doesn't have many friends because he spends all his free time with me. My Mom loves him but doesn't want me to because my Dad has a porn addiction and she doesn't want me to get hurt like she did or whatever and I understand that too, but I love him anyway. I'm not as confident as I put on and I think I have a mental problem because when no one wil talk to me, I cry and shake violently and lose my breath. I don't know how to talk to anyone about all this, not even my boyfriend. I know my best friend cares about me or otherwise I wouldn't call her my best friend at all. She just doesn't have time for me because I put too much on her too and she's got better things to do anyway and better people to talk to about more important things. No one else will talk to me, (even though I'm not ugly, or nerdy, or annoying really) because I ruined my highschool reputation in elementary school and I can't figure out how to start it over. The only people who like me, didn't know me then. I just don't understand why they can't let elementary school go. HELLO? IT WAS YEARS AGO!!!!!!
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advice from Guest2685226 | 04-01-2007 04:50 | E : 0 | S : 0
I think you should cut everyone in your life a break. It sounds like you might be a little too demanding. Maybe if you start thinking of ways to help those in your life, you'll start to feel better yourself.
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