My biggest lie

Ive told my boyfriend many lies, that I think are worth it because they make him love me more. I still believe the deception is worth it and am petrified of him finding out the truth about me. That everything he loves about me is a lie and hell see me as I really feel: pathetic and sad. Hes the only thing that keeps me happy, how is it better for him to know the truth if I will loose him? I dont lie about things now, but I cant renege on the past lies that created the me he loves in his mind.
Category Betrayal