no more sex

i used to date this older guy, and he treated me badly...basically he was an a**hole. i made the mistake of giving in to him and had sex...that not only made me feel cheap but because i wanted sex i have gone back to him since. last year on my birthday we were in a hotel rm (sleezy i know) and after i asked him if he had a condomn on he said "yes", but he didn't and right away i realized. i said to him "what the hell are you trying to do?" then he said "see you shouldn't trust people..."
(i took the morning after pill the next day...just in case)
the worst thing about this whole thing is that for one reason or another i have gone back to him for sex and was going to again tonight... BUT i grew some, made up a story to get out of it and am deleting every trace of this poison from my life.

i need to hold out for more for myself.
Category General Confession