Stupid love

I met a distant relative almost a year ago fot the first time...I knew he was falling for me and so i tried to distance myself from him...but he showed me that i deserved to be loved and so without wanting to i fell for him too.

After acouple of months i went back to my hometown and i really thought that i would ge over it...that i and he would forget about the whole thing...but after countless emails from him i let my guard down...

long story short we had a long distance relationship...i reaaly thought we were gf/bf.. He would always tell me how muche he loved me and that he missed me so much and after hearing it so much i believed him... i told him though that i'm not sure when we would see each other again so i said it was ok if he wants to look for someone else...He said no for about 8 months,,

And last xmas he confessed that he was with someone else..and it totally broke my heart.. but i kept in contact becaus ei loved him..didnt tell him that but i still felt it....

A couple of weeks after that news he confessed another thing..he might've gotten his ex pregnant, while he's still with this other girl...

So all in all..While i was sitting here miserably missing him so much...he was with 2 other girls..he said that I'm the one he loves...

I hate him for hurting me so much but i cant really hate him..

i still love him but he won't know that coz i've made it clear that we cannot be whatever we thought we were coz as far as i was concerned it was all based on lies..

he keeps telling me that his feeling for me are real...

I know i'm really stupid...

I know it...

But i love him...and no matter how hard i try to forget him or try to stop feeling this way I cant..i just cant..I can fake it when im talking to him though...

Im such an idiot
Category Romance