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I'm 15 years old and I have never had an eating disorder. I feel like I should have because I think I'm fat. My friend's say I'm not, and when they tell me to tell myself that, I say that I am "chubby". Sometimes I wish I did have an eating disorder. That seems to be the only way to get skinny. I excercise everyday, only eat 3 meals a day (no snacks), and i do sit ups. Nothing works. When I try to starve myself, I get this nagging urge for junk food. I know it's wrong to want to be belemic or anorexic, but i wish i were.

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