What You Dont Know Could Kill Me

When you turn around, when you look away for just a second, I fall apart. I cry myself to sleep; I beat myself up inside. Then when you look again, I put on a smile and laugh at things that aren't funny.
I don't think you'll ever understand how much this whole thing has killed me, how much he has killed me inside. I loved him; I still do. He did a horrible thing to me, and I can never forget that, he can never take it back. In the end I still feel guilty about making the police report though. I feel disgusted every time I think about all of the detailed questions they asked me and all the memories it brought back. I must have been so naive, but I really didn't see what he did coming. I wish someone, anyone could understand this.
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advice from Guest3285745 | 12-31-2007 11:03 | E : 0 | S : 0
I understand this. Don't feel bad. You did what you needed to. He isn't worth it. You can do soo much better. Stop falling apart when no one's looking. Let your friends know what's going on, give them a chance to be there for you. Also it couldn't hurt to talk to a counselor.
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advice from Guest1977331 | 01-16-2008 17:28 | E : 0 | S : 0
99% of the time, talking about your problems is the best way to cure them or at least treat them.
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