when i see pictures of my ex

i cant help but think about what it would be like if it was him i was with,
not you.

ive never been so in love,
but i have a nagging feeling of what if,
and a hope that somewhere,
he is worse off than i am,
not that im doing bad,
i just want him to be doing bad.

i saw him the other day,
and it killed me.
because i know i used to be the apple of his eye.
and even though im the apple of yours now,
i feel this sense of emptiness when i see him laughing and smiling,
and it isnt because of me.
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